i think i'm okay because there shouldn't be much to not be ok about
but signs that i'm not are very unconsciously creeping in,

like when I'm back to sleeping 4 hours a day and I don't care if there'll be fatigue hanging over my body throughout the day, or that i still sleep with my phone next to me even though that makes my head hurt like crazy the next morning, or when I don't eat healthily (or even much at all) and don't give a damn, or when my eyeballs hurt and i continue using the computer.

i'm usually extremely conscious of these things.